The habit of writing

Writing – Jeff Carroll

So… I seem to start a lot of my writings with “So…”. That’s something I need to look at somewhere down the line…

So… I have challenged myself to write at least 500 words a day for the next month. It’s day two and here I am doing it a second time. Look at me go. Writing is an unfulfilled (unrequited?) love of mine. I’ve always wanted to do it but I’ve never fully engaged in it for very long. I will get the bug, write some for a time, and then let it go because I got busy with something else important… watching TV or something…

What I noticed a few days ago when I was warming up for this challenge is that I had to feel my way around getting started a bit because I’m out of the habit. The same thing happened with my motorcycle a month or so ago. I hadn’t ridden in a few months, 2020 has been that kind of year, and when I got on it I felt a little wobbly at it. I still knew how to ride a motorcycle. I knew all the right things to do but they didn’t feel smooth. My muscle memory was rusty. That was a reminder for me that I need to ride more. It was the same way when I started typing my thoughts the other day. I felt wobbly at it. I still obviously know how to punch keys on a keyboard and to attempt to move my thoughts onto the “paper,” but it didn’t feel as comfortable as I would like it to be. I need to write more. I need to think more.

I want to get back to the point where I fall through the hole in the paper. I remember reading “Misery” by Stephen King. In it the main character talked about getting into a zone when writing where he would eventually fall through the hole in the paper and just write, lost in the story. I have experienced that when programming, primarily, and in other projects… just getting lost in the moment. That is an incredible feeling. We don’t do enough of that. We don’t fall through the hole in whatever it is we are doing. These days I think if people are getting lost in anything it is television, video games, or the news media. Ok enough on an occasional basis but not something that should be on your daily goals list.

And so here I am, writing again, hopefully for the long term. Not for you, for me. I want my brain engaged and thinking. If you can get something out if the things I share, God bless you. I’m happy to help. Perhaps one day I’ll get to my story (memoirs is such a pretentious sounding word to me). Here we go…